I knew this time would come, but its earlier than expected. Money is extremely tight, and its that time of the year where the bank balance is taking a bashing.... After a long and tearful chat one evening we decided it was time for me to go back. I have had a week to process the idea and I'm starting to feel more confident and even looking forward to going back. Of course if I had it my way, I would at home with Darcie, but unfortunately that is not possible. On the plus side I work in a school meaning, good hours and of course, the school holidays. So in retrospect I have it pretty good for a full time working mum.
I have asked lots of other working mums about how they cope and they have all said, "I'm not going to lie Kay, its pretty hard. But seeing there faces when they come home is priceless". Plus all of them said how much you appreciate your time together more. But to be honest I already value my time with little D.
Luckily on the childcare front were all sorted and Jamie will be mostly looking after her due to his shifts, which is fantastic as it will mean she will have much more time with him. Plus I won't feel so bad leaving her knowing her daddy is with her.
So I'm trying to stay positive and fingers crossed I find it ok. I'm almost certain that Darcie won't even be bothered. She is such a chilled out little girl and I know that she won't struggle at all... It will just be me that does!!
|Love my girl|
I'm having mixed emotions about the 17th December, but I will hope for the best and I'm just going to get on with it!!
Mummy B xoxox